Asperger Syndrome

You think in systems. You see patterns where others see chaos. You can immerse yourself in a topic for hours until you have understood every detail — and it doesn't feel like work, but like breathing. At the same time, something else happens: as soon as you enter a room full of people, everything becomes too much. The gazes, the unspoken rules, the expectation of saying the right thing spontaneously — it is as if someone were turning up the volume while you are trying to read a complex score.